Did I Really Buy All Of This?

On Sunday we were out visiting Ryan's parents and Ryan's cousin, Alyson, was there with her two kids, Haley 3 and Drake 5 months. Drake is a big baby! He weighs about 20 lbs and is very long and just a really big baby - but very cute! He is just growing like crazy and Alyson was complaining that all the clothes she bought him for Christmas he is already growing out of and how he is already in 12 months clothes, so on and so on... So I said to her I have so many baby clothes from Dallon and because of Dallon's little problems (Dallon didn't grow for a while), we have every size in every season. So fast forward to today and I am pulling down big plastic storage bins out of the garage - sizes 12-24 months.



I started to go through the bins - there were three of them - and seeing all the cute little outfits started to remind me of all sorts of different times we have had with Dallon. There were the outfits that reminded me of trips to Bear Lake, trips to St George or the hikes we as a family would take in the fall... and then there were these odd articles of clothing that I kept... why? I don't know.

They were the pajamas and socks that Dallon would wear in the hospital. We would have to buy a certain kind of pajamas that snapped up the front (to allow all the cords and IV tubing to come through the front) and of course they didn't have feet in them (Dallon could not stand to wear pajamas that had feet - too constricting) and then the socks were just really thick socks (that you could never possibly wear shoes with) that keep his feet warm. I absolutely hate these pajamas, they are such a reminder of NOT good times that I can't fathom why I would keep them. There were only two pairs of them - most ended up being cut (modified) trying to hide the tubing so Dallon wouldn't pull at it - but apparently the last two made it through without any modifications. But I didn't throw them away - that would be wasteful - so I will see if Drake can wear them and he can just keep them, I don't want them back!

But it was kind of fun to see all the clothes that Dallon wore and all the memories that I have of him in the different outfits. But by the end of today I just kept thinking, 'Did I really buy all of this?!'